When The Change You Want Feels Like Too Much…

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Do you ever have a moment of inspiration and want to change everything about your life?

And then the next day you wake up to the sound of crying kids and the dishwasher wasn’t started last night and you’re out of milk and the dog left mud all over your bed and you forgot to bake something for that mom group you don’t even feel like you belong in…and you get the picture.

That has been my chapter for quite some time. I so wanted to live a healthier life style, I wanted to write, I wanted to enjoy the life I had in front of me…but it was all just so overwhelming.

At the time, things really fell apart.

If you scroll back even just a little bit in my posts you’ll see how messy my heart had become. But now I see that mess was necessary- the path was now clear for me to really bloom.

However, that doesn’t mean everything is just perfect over here now. I still struggle to do the things I am happy to say I do most of the time. Like not eating sugar. I mostly actually really don’t want to- it gives me anxiety and inflammation and a general feeling of sickness. Yet it’s an addiction I can’t just randomly walk away from.

It’s going to take some time, and it’s going to take some falling down again. And again. But this is God’s refining fire for us. This constant failing is actually our victory march. It’s a fight. But if you give up because it’s a hard fight…then you’re giving away your victory.

What really helped me battle the fear and overwhelm was changing my mind.

Instead of letting my inner self talk negatively I chose to remember scripture. God’s word is full of truth. And truth is what gives us freedom. Even freedom from the bondage of thoughts. Focusing on getting scripture on my walls this past month has been so helpful in this. All of my goals this month had to do with getting back to the basics of life and especially focusing on getting as much prayer and Bible into my day.

This has been on repeat in my heart this past month. Being aware. Being in the hands of a good God who will restore, confirm, strengthen and establish!
casting all your anxieties on him, because he cares for you. 8 Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour. 9 Resi

From a favorite writer of mine:

There’s no need for shame or guilt about being stuck or overwhelmed. It doesn’t mean you are flawed; it means you have an opportunity.

There are inevitable times of overload in our lives that are bound to creep up—times of change or transition or times where there’s simply too much to do and not enough time to do it (are you feeling that?). These are opportunities to shift. Opportunities to say yes to what matters, no to what doesn’t, and to let God do the heavy lifting.”

Lara Casey

In the blog post I linked to she shared about her tool for writing the word. (A beautiful book I have been crushing on so bad ❤ )

I have been putting this practice into action by writing ‘morning pages’. I journal some thoughts and prayers and then write down whatever verses stuck out to me- most often this is from the one psalm I like to read each morning. Time is short these days 😉

So even though I have been in a season of battling negative thinking and self doubt and worry…I have used this opportunity to build a renewed mind.

Do not be conformed to this world,[c] but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect

What is your favorite verse in the Bible? What scripture helps you fight against overwhelm or fear?

 

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